She’s a bit down in the dumps today and hasn’t yet told me why. I’m determined to make her smile, so I decided to do write this entry just for her.
The first time I feel her is in the morning when I’m asleep and she kisses me somewhere on my face right before she leaves for work. Sometimes it’s multiple kisses and sometimes there’s an “I love you” and I almost always feel them even if I don’t wake up. If I wake up with no recollection of it happening my day is just not the same.
I feel her when I’m at work, even if we aren’t chatting, emailing or on the phone with each other. See, I’ve got a few pictures of us together and of her alone either in frames on my desk or hanging on the walls of my cubicle. They catch my gaze constantly each day and I’ll literally catch myself staring and wonder how long I’ve been sitting here starry-eyed at her and smiling. She’s so beautiful, I can’t help it.
After work when I get to see her I feel like I’ve finally reached my destination. She is my home, whether we are home or not.
Her presence is so comforting and soothing. In fact, shes the only person who has ever had the ability to calm my anxieties. She does not fidget. She does not bounce her legs uncontrollably, bite her nails, twitch or any of the anxiety expressions I’ve been plagued with. On the rare occasion when she does feel anxious, she’ll twirl her hair but she also does that when she’s really tired.
She would give everything she had if it meant protecting or helping anyone she loves without so much as a second thought or complaint.
The kids are so lucky to have her as a mom. She has a special relationship with them that makes my heart melt. My favorite part about spending time together as a family is when she and the kids reminisce about things in the past that I wasn’t able to witness. They paint such a vivid picture for me that I feel as if I had been there.
She’s given me her entire heart, her future, her love, trust, devotion. She’s given me the family life and parenthood that I’d always hoped for. Two beautiful kids who have grown into/are growing into adulthood before my very eyes. It’s amazing to know that Tina trusted me enough to allow me to be an influential figure in their lives. To instill some of my, values, advice and guidance onto them. I’m not perfect, and I’m sure I’ve made mistakes but I’m fortunate to have their love and acceptance and wouldn’t trade this family for the world.
Tina fulfills so many of my emotional and physical needs, without even trying, in a way that’s so amazing that I want to tell everyone in the world about the tiniest details it but I’m afraid she’d hate me if I did. 
Just laying with her in bed makes me feel so connected to her, like we are bound to tightly together that we could never be separated.. and we don’t have to be touching at all. Then there are the times when her skin touches me unexpectedly and it may as well have been an explosion it’s so intense.
Basically what I’m trying to say in this post is that I love her. With every breath, every glance, every thought, every bit of me.
Thank you baby for showing me what love is. I’m looking forward to getting home and kissing you till it hurts.
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03/09/2009 at 3:02 pm Permalink
03/09/2009 at 3:43 pm Permalink
Very cute! You two are lucky to have each other
03/09/2009 at 4:10 pm Permalink
Just beautiful. Being able to see what you have in front of you and appreciate it like you do is a gift. Never take that love for granted and it will never stop giving back. The years just make it stronger.
I hope this changed her day.
03/09/2009 at 4:13 pm Permalink
Wow …. really really nice
03/09/2009 at 4:38 pm Permalink
a beautiful tribute to a beautiful person.
and! you are tagged again! hahahaha!
03/09/2009 at 4:45 pm Permalink
sooooooo sweet! I want what you guys have.
03/09/2009 at 5:10 pm Permalink
Wow.. dude, you could teach classes in how to be a romantic
that is sweet and full of love, I was having a kind of tough day, but I’m smiling now.
03/09/2009 at 10:49 pm Permalink
You’ve got something special… and i know you treasure it.
Beautifully written.
from one mush to another!
04/09/2009 at 12:32 pm Permalink
Awww Jess that was such a nice post! We all want what you guys have!
04/09/2009 at 5:43 pm Permalink
You guys are so awesome. Jess, you remind me so much of G, it’s not funny. Well, it is, kinda, but you know what I mean. She’s not so good with putting words on paper, but she had verbally said almost exactly the same things to me.
We are all 4 of us very lucky people to have found the loves of our lives!
GG
04/09/2009 at 6:33 pm Permalink
I loved this post.
I especially love the part where you mention your children, and how Tina trusts you to be an influential part of their lives. That’s it, isn’t it? You know… a couple of my friends are struggling with their romance vs. the kids of one of the women and they view them as two separate worlds. Time with the partner vs. time with the kids and focus is on the two at separate times, never together. This post shows how possible it to have the love for your partner and the love for your children combined as one.
05/09/2009 at 8:09 am Permalink
Hi Jess -
I’ve been MIA for a bit and am trying to catch up with everyone – so glad I stopped by today and read this post. It’s beautifully written and I think we should all take the time to let the people in our lives know how much we love them – and why.
Well done!
05/09/2009 at 10:00 am Permalink
Beautiful. Both of you.
05/09/2009 at 7:07 pm Permalink
Great post. It sounds like you actually *see* who she is, and that’s inspiring.
I love the picture of you two where I think you were at a wedding? The 4th one down. It’s awesome.
09/09/2009 at 8:57 pm Permalink
So beautiful. I only wish someone to feel that way about me someday..
10/09/2009 at 12:06 am Permalink
Aww, this is beautiful, glad I got to read it.
19/07/2010 at 8:19 pm Permalink
this is beautiful, and absolutely one of the sweetest things i’ve read in a while. you really have something special, and i’m sure you cherish it. i hope to one day have what you have.