Today is day 64. Last night I had my 10th shot of T. I can’t believe how fast time is flying by.
I’ve been seeing lots of changes in me lately.
Tina and I have both noticed that I’m not as curvy as I used to be. My chest has gotten smaller, or at least less dense, and my hips are definitely more narrow. My thighs are looking more muscular than flabby (awesome!). It’s noticeable to others that my upper body seems to be more broad and in Val’s words “bulky”.
My voice continues to drop, daily. I’m pretty much stuck in low right now and I’m getting used to hearing it. Some mornings I wake up hoarse, with almost laryngitis. I think I freaked out my mom the other day on the phone though. I don’t think she was ready for the roar when she called. Seriously, it’s almost scary how low it gets. I changed my voicemail at work and that made Tina sad since she was happy that she could call and hear my old voice. I wish I had known, I would have warned her. Singing is completely out of the question right now. Trust me.
Hair. It’s incredible how the growth seems to have started overnight, but I guess in reality I saw the fuzz coming in very early on. There has been significant hair growth on my chest, stomach, lower back, ass and upper thighs and knees (I had pretty bald knees before). The lower half of my legs have always been really hairy, so I can’t tell if that’s changed.
Last night while lying in bed, my beautiful wife looked at me and sad “OMG baby!!!” She scared me for a second. When I asked what, she said, “you have hair all over your face!!!” When I asked her to point to it, she covered my entire face with her hands. LOL. Then she did point, and basically the entire side of my face/cheek, chin/neck, lip, under bottom lip is growing dark hairs (mixed with blond). I had been shaving almost daily, so I really didn’t realize how much had started to grow in. I looked in the mirror this morning and got a bit smiley after seeing what she was talking about.
I’ve decided that I’m not going to shave until after camping (except my moustache so Tina will kiss me). I’m curious to see what I end up with on Monday.
I’ve also been noticing that I’m getting stronger. It really occured to me at work yesterday when I had to fill in for our packing guy who didn’t make it to work. I was whipping around 50 lb boxes of paper without much effort. I’ve been increasing my weights at the gym and seeing some progress in the workouts, overall. I am looking forward to working out tonight.
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I have not seen my therapist since July 14th. Her mom passed away and she hasn’t gotten back to seeing patients yet. I understand how hard it is to resume life after such a huge loss.
I had been seeing her weekly, and had just started to see her every other week. It’s not that there’s anything really urgent to talk about, but I really need a therapist on my side when I begin to start the process of changing my name and gender.
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We’re going camping with some friends this coming weekend and I am so looking forward to it. It’s been a long time coming!
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Next Tuesday is my laparoscopy. Keep your fingers crossed that there are signs of endometriosis so that I can get this hysterectomy/oophorectomy over with..
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18/08/2009 at 10:26 am Permalink
Ok this post made me laugh out loud.
No worries about warnings papa – the old things I loved about you are locked away for safe keeping.
Just making some room for the new things I love.
Happy 10th shot!
18/08/2009 at 1:00 pm Permalink
Sounds like things are progressing nicely! I, again, give you a big high five and a keep on keepin on!!!!
18/08/2009 at 1:13 pm Permalink
Congratulations… you must be thrilled that your progress seems to be going smoothly. I hope it continues…
18/08/2009 at 5:01 pm Permalink
I have definitely noticed changes in the photos that Tina has been posted, particularly of the wedding this past weekend. You look the same, but different, if that makes any sense. LOL Either way you LOOK good, but it’s great to hear how enthusiastic you are as things go forward, and Tina’s post above got me teary-eyed.
You guys are such an amazing couple!!
Congratulations on the 10th shot and all the good progress. Condolences to your therapist.
GG
18/08/2009 at 9:16 pm Permalink
Good luck next Tuesday, Jess, and have fun camping too! I think you are very brave and I enjoy following your blog and your progress. I sure wish there was some way I could get less flabby thighs… course I wouldn’t be as thrilled as you if I started to get the extra facial hair.
19/08/2009 at 10:49 am Permalink
Awwww at what Tina wrote! That is beautiful.
I am very happy that I get to see you (and hear you!) face to face this weekend. It’s awesome.
Thank you for the update, it really is amazing to follow your progress.
19/08/2009 at 1:14 pm Permalink
I have a big smile on my face for you, Jess. I’m so happy to hear how happy you are, it’s such a good good thing
As I watch you and some of my other friends transition, I’ll admit to some envy. You know where you want to be, you have a destination. As tough as it is to get there, it’s got to be reassuring to be on the way. I don’t have such a clear cut path. I continue to not choose between the genders, because I am really a person who feels both male and female energy in me pretty clearly. So maybe I am where I need to get to, but there are times when my male self would love to be recognized more.
I’m really glad you’re able to do this, Jess. It’s inspiring to see you and my other friends take hold of their destinies and have the love and support of friends and partners and families. Best of luck to you, friend.
20/08/2009 at 3:13 am Permalink
Congrats! And you can have all my endo–sending it on over to you!
30/08/2009 at 8:45 pm Permalink
I echo some things Kyle said, about having a little bit of envy. I feel a little stuck in between genders sometimes. I have no plans to transition but still feel some pangs of longing when I read your posts and talk to my friends who are in the process.
In the meantime, thanks for the updates. I’ve wondered how the process would be if I went through it, and between you and Tina’s posts, you’ve opened up the process for us to see.