Jess I Am

The madness was documented in detail by my wife Tina on her blog.  Make sure you leave her a comment to let her know how awesome her new layout is. 

I don’t remember all of the details, so I’m glad she remembered enough to blog it all.  I was pretty intoxicated both Friday and Saturday nights.  I won’t be drinking much this weekend.

Friday I almost got into a fight.  I don’t know what came over me, but I was definitely more angry than I’ve been in a long time.   Or maybe the transition has me a little bit more insecure when it comes to the idea of a lesbian trying to interfere in my relationship.  I literally would have gone to jail if Tina didn’t back me into a corner.

Other than that, I had a really good time Friday at the club.  I danced with Bobbie a few times since Tina hates to dance.  That was cool.  I was also really conscious of not getting too close to Bobbie since I was packing and that would be like bumping my cock on my sister or something.  Just a bit weird.  I wonder if she thought it was odd that I kept such a distance? LOL

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Saturday we were at a pre-op party for a new trans friend of mine that I met at the monthly meetings.  It was an awesome time, I’m so happy for him and to have met him.. a really good guy.

When we first got there I was having a hard time figuring out who was trans and who wasn’t.  It was so wild for me to be in the presence of 9-10 transmen/genderqueers all at once like that.  Everyone was really cool though and I’m really looking forward to the next party.  The whole night I had to keep pinching myself to see if I was awake.

Oh and Seagrams Sweet Tea flavored vodka is bomb.  Fo’ rizzle.

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Yesterday we went to see Hangover with B&P.  Some parts had me laughing so hard I was crying, but some kinda had me annoyed.

During the movie my arms were tingling, losing feeling and cramping up.  I thought it would pass, it happens sometimes when I sit for too long or something, but this was different.  I didn’t say anything because I didn’t want to freak anyone out.

I think my “sports top” may have been too tight, and was affecting a nerve in my shoulder area.  By the time I got home I was panicking because it got worse rather than better.  Tina gave me a massage and it helped a bit, then a hot shower helped a bit more, but it was still happening in a mild form through the night.

TMI Alert – grossness ahead

I’m also strangely enough having issue with cysts again in my chest. This happened back in Dec-Jan, and before that it had been a few years, but I do have a history of it.  The one I had back in Dec-Jan is back in the same spot.  It’s sore to the touch and I’m experiencing quite a bit of leakage (puss?) when I squeeze the nipple.

All the more reason to have top surgery as soon as effin possible. The only thing worse abt having breasts is having attention drawn to said breasts by Drs, etc.  I was hoping to avoid regular Dr visits right now, and I think I am goign to go get this looked at tonight.  Not a pleasant trip.

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Apparently my Dad and youngest siblings all recieved their letters over the weekend and today.  I’m not sure of the details yet, but my bro told me that my Dad is not taking it very well and that one of my siblings who also got the letter has been talking to him about it.  I don’t have more details than that, so as you can imagine I’m having some anxiety right now.

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My Endo appt. got rescheduled to 11:00 AM tomorrow (was supposed to be at noon) By this time tomorrow I could very well have had my first dose of testosterone.  I’m beyond excited and hope that none of these other issues will prevent the Dr. from prescribing the T.  Hopefully my labs/ultrasound results came back okay.

Wish me luck!

Related posts:

1. Labor Day Weekend 2008
2. Another weekend away!
3. So Far So Good.
4. Weekend Update with Pics
5. In Transition.

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